cable

when i woke up this morning, i had a kink in my neck. mornings like that make me curious about what exactly it is i'm doing at night. do i sleep with my neck at such a severe angle for long periods of time that it causes my neck to be sore the next morning? this also puts me in a sour mood, since i am almost always behind schedule in regard to things happening before...say... noon. anyways, this all brought up a thought i don't think i've ever had before... i want to put a camera pointed at myself for one whole night, and see why it is exactly that i seem to always wake up so groggy and sore. obviously the soreness is mainly from gym-time and recovery. but why do i seem to wake up feeling like the creature from the black lagoon? whatever it is i'm doing, i don't dig it, and i'd like very much for it to stop.

have you ever missed someone you've never actually met? someone you've gotten to be close with, whether its some unknown sexual attraction or just good company, but someone you haven't met physically in reality? its a very strange concept, but i'd like you to think about it. it's been a recurring thought in my brain. i miss a lot of people. i miss a lot of people a lot. family, friends, pets. people i haven't seen in months. some i won't see for perhaps years. i miss them.

but i am happy. i'm extremely happy. i think i mentioned before 2010 has been nothing short of phenomenal, and it seems that it will continue to be the greatest year since my birth year. i wonder how happy i was back then. must've been amazing being a baby. seeing the most common, unremarkable things for the first time. what if you saw something as a baby that should normally stick with you for eternity, but being a newborn, your mind forgot this once in a lifetime event. thats kind of heartbreaking... :/

thats all for today