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have you ever told a lie so well, you convinced yourself it was reality? lies are tricky business. sometimes we are forced to lie, either to protect the ones we love, or to protect ourselves. but at the same time, those lies can come back to bite us in the ass. even if you have good intentions when you first tell the lie, its still a lie.

but i want to talk about malicious lies. lies that cripple people's lives permanently. i've seen people that can tell these lies, and convince themselves that these lies are reality. they are literally living in a lie. if you ever read this, i want the truth. nothing less, and nothing more. just tell me what you couldn't or wouldn't tell me before. i'm sick of wondering about you.


now, in case you haven't heard, my life has been ungodly busy this month. i've had to work every single day since last friday. so that is largely the reason this blog has been neglected.

my thoughts have been very cluttered since the start of 2011. its strange, i made 3 resolutions this year.
1) lose 15 pounds by spring
2) change diet (no more baconators, fries, etc)
3) quit smoking

day to day life is usually the simple part, and life style changes (like the resolutions) are the hard part. but lately day to day living has been the confusing aspect of my life. homesick, frustration, loneliness. the loneliness is strongest. i want to be in love again. i want to have someone to take care of, someone who will be a part of my life.

but then the feeling passes, and i go back to work.