train station

i wrote this almost exactly 2 years ago while i was at a train station in michigan. i did not know i was moving to new orleans at that time. so many things have changed in my life physically, but it is surprising how true all of the mental aspects still are. i am motivated now more than ever to make positive changes in my life.



all the movement of the world makes me really enjoy the stillness of certain moments in my past. moments i had before disregarded as boredom or inactivity. i think if i could go back to those moments, i would really appreciate the slow, relaxed attitude i once carried in my soul. these days my life is relentless movement. work, travel, work. lather rinse repeat. its not a bad thing. my body was made for work. my consciousness designed for labor and stress. its overwhelming at times, often maddening the way my peers give no quarter for rest. but it is the life i chose, and we must lie in the bed we've made. that being said, there is a very special girl in my life right now. one i have cherished for around a year and a half. she has stood by my side through thick and thin. tough and easy. reaped the benefits and endured the burn of my lifestyle. as hard as i push myself to endure and perservere, it often seems like i push her even harder. she usually does so with grace and poise, but in her moments of doubt, she is a tempest of emotion. raging like a hurricane, feared by all but felt by few. our love is a ship, and her beauty is my north star, my guiding light. i love her from bow to stern. keel to mast, port to starboard. all the movement of the world makes me really enjoy the stillness of certain moments in my past. like laying in bed with her. loving her. cherishing her.